So far I feel like Paideia has helped me stretch myself outside my comfort zone. I love learning about virtually anything but I do gravitate to specific topics. I generally stick to the topics that make sense to me. When I had to choose and reflect on an on and off campus experience that we typically would not go to, I had no trouble coming up with ideas. On a liberal art campus there is such a wealth of opportunities it is hard to not find something outside of your specialty field. After going to the theater and a music concert, I found that I actually enjoyed the experiences. Over the past year I have been going to more of these type of events. So this year for my on and off campus experience, I had more difficulty deciding which of my experiences I wanted to discuss. The major difference I found between this year and last is that last year I had to find an event to fulfill my requirement and this year I got to choose which of many events I have attended had the biggest impact. I do not always enjoy the activities I go to but I do make the time to go.
I really hope that next semester we can get together more outside of class. I really enjoy everyone in my cohort and think it would be fantastic to get to know everyone that much more. I know how busy this semester was for me and from what I heard everyone else had a equally horrific schedule. So next semester it might be easier to plan get togethers.
As far as future plans go, they have not changed from the beginning off the year. I still plan on studying in Australia this summer. I still want to present my Capstone at the creative works symposium. My Capstone with Dr. Purdy is going to be started next semester. I cannot wait to get started on the project. Overall I cannot wait for next semester. I have learned so much from my Paideia cohort about myself and others. I am saddened that we do not have as many people in our group as last year but everyone who shows up always have so much to share. I love the discussions we have and how it makes me think about stuff that would generally seem irrelevant to me. It is a nice break from normal classes. I am excited for learning more in the semesters to come.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Reflection: Discussions and readings
This semester’s discussions have really opened my eyes to a number of different topics I never paid much attention to before. I generally consider myself open minded and actively seeking different subject to study. I have a wide range of interests which can make it difficult at times to choose a recreational reading. However, since high school my focus has been almost completely devoted to science based ideas. My biology teacher was one of those teachers that pushed for us to expand our knowledge of the field. He would have us find outside reading and report on what we learned. From that class I discovered how much I liked science. I some how started to shun out all other subject areas because they just were not science. I liked how the Paideia discussions have reawaken my interest in other subjects. It was nice to also have someone that had a lot of previous insight in that subject so I could learn more then just what the reading was conveying. For my reading, I shared a chapter out of a book written by Jonah Lehrer titled “Proust was a Neuroscientist”. This book brings up the notion that science actually started with the arts. It references eight different artists that based their work on scientific theories. Through their work they developed their own theories of how things work. Some of these theories, such as Proust’s theory of mind, are just now being proven. What I enjoy so much about this book is the integration of art with science. As I stated earlier, I believe I have a wide range of interests but I have never really been a fan of the arts. I like playing instruments and you can catch me doodling in my notebooks during study breaks but I could never study the meaning of the arts. I think mostly because I did not understand it so it could not capture my attention. But this book has given me something I can learn about art. Now I can look for the science in the art and the art in science.
The other major thing I enjoyed about these discussions is that I learned a lot more about myself and how I learn. A few of our discussions touched on the educational system (personally I think it is flawed in many ways, but I won’t elaborate on that here). I thought about the structure of my classes and how that correlated to how much I enjoyed the subject. I found the more discussion based the class was the more I looked forward to and studied for that class. It was interesting that other people in my cohort have experienced the same correlation. Discovering how people learn also connects to our Paideia topic of understanding human behavior. The coolest thing about humans and animals is that we are always changing and adapting to our environment. Learning is a key aspect to this adaptation. So understanding how we learn is essential to understanding how we behave.
The other major thing I enjoyed about these discussions is that I learned a lot more about myself and how I learn. A few of our discussions touched on the educational system (personally I think it is flawed in many ways, but I won’t elaborate on that here). I thought about the structure of my classes and how that correlated to how much I enjoyed the subject. I found the more discussion based the class was the more I looked forward to and studied for that class. It was interesting that other people in my cohort have experienced the same correlation. Discovering how people learn also connects to our Paideia topic of understanding human behavior. The coolest thing about humans and animals is that we are always changing and adapting to our environment. Learning is a key aspect to this adaptation. So understanding how we learn is essential to understanding how we behave.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
On Campus experience
For my on campus experience I attended the student body forum. When I first decided to go I was not interested. Actually I felt forced into because all my friends are going. I did not even read the Strategic Plan before attended. Truthfully I did not care where the money went. I trust that the people in charge know what is important and how we need to get what we need. Since going, I have read the plan and am a little disappointed. I decided to read the plan because the outline they gave at the forum was extensively vague. I was frustrated by the presentation of their ideas and the lack of knowledge of the plan the two student representatives had. To my disappointment, the plan was equally vague. The ideas they have seem unreasonable and pointless. The plan is filled with questionable comments such as “as funding allows”. Not only where the ideas pointless and vague, I don’t think the plan has the correct priorities in line. I do agree that improving the athletic facilities should be at the top of the list. Allowing for greater resources would improve the quality of our existing athletic teams. That being said, I think adding a football team in the next 5-7 years is unreasonable. Our school already has so much potential with our existing sports, that adding another, especially, football will completely deplete the already low funding for our sports teams. Putting our name on the board in athletics can help build our school name around the nation. Once we get to the national level in our respected sports, a reputation can be better built. Some of the students and probably the faculty would agree that improved sport teams would help establish a reputation of the school though out the nation but probably not in the way they want. Most schools that are nationally known for athletics rank low on the quality of the education. I agree we should not be known for the brawn and not the brain. But some of the best student athletes are also some of the best students.
Listening to the other students’ voice their opinions was very interesting to me. I would get annoyed when someone would back up their opinions with a point that was not even valid. I think they need to get their facts straight before pointing a finger saying, you are wrong. I understand everyone has a different opinion to what is important, but they also need to keep an open mind to the importance of other things. Many of them seemed to just form an opinion based on their friends’ opinions around them. Others would fluctuate in what they thought was important immediately after someone would make a point (again not always valid). Overall the atmosphere of the forum was interesting. I became aware of the issues at hand and have researched the topic brought up. I now have my own opinion on what I think the next step the university should take. I hope the plan is reevaluated before it is put into action.
Listening to the other students’ voice their opinions was very interesting to me. I would get annoyed when someone would back up their opinions with a point that was not even valid. I think they need to get their facts straight before pointing a finger saying, you are wrong. I understand everyone has a different opinion to what is important, but they also need to keep an open mind to the importance of other things. Many of them seemed to just form an opinion based on their friends’ opinions around them. Others would fluctuate in what they thought was important immediately after someone would make a point (again not always valid). Overall the atmosphere of the forum was interesting. I became aware of the issues at hand and have researched the topic brought up. I now have my own opinion on what I think the next step the university should take. I hope the plan is reevaluated before it is put into action.
A Reflection on a Humbling experience- Off Campus experience
My off campus experience was a spontaneous impulse I decided to do a couple of weeks ago. At church one of our members announced that a church in Austin has a breakfast for the homeless on certain mornings. I put the idea in the back of my mind because I am not really the volunteering type. Then one Wednesday night at our weekly FCA meeting we were reading a book about God’s love. The lesson was about being a “good” Christian. Being new to my faith I did not believe in having some book telling me how I should love my Savior. I knew in my heart that He loves me and I in return live my life for Him (there is a point to this I promise). But the book we read did more then what I feared it would do. It allowed me to take a step back and reevaluate the way I lived my life. It brought up points about how many “Christians”, the book refers to them as “luke-warm Christians”, say they live their life for Christ but in no way can you see that in their everyday life. They say they would give anything for Jesus but in reality would they? Would they sell their house and give all their riches? I don’t think so. The point isn’t that everyone who considers themselves Christian should go to such lengths, but the point is that many of the actions these so called Christians do are because it is what is expected of them. They go to church on Sundays and donate money to their church because that is what society says you need to do to be a good “Christian”. This point was eventually tied into the idea of helping others. The book talked about helping people that could not help you back. It explains that instead of having a feast with family and friends, you should invite the homeless and needy, someone who would be unable to pay you back. An emphasis was made on how easy it is to help out the people in your everyday life because you can always get a chance to receive a reciprocal action when you are down on your luck. This point really struck home for me. I remember last year in Paideia, our cohort had a heated debate attempting to figure out a civic engagement project that would help serve the community. In the discussion some of the students described their past volunteering experiences and the people they encountered that were volunteering, as nothing more then a forced effort. In a sense, these people volunteered because that is what society said they needed to do to be a good person (sound familiar?). When I think about volunteering I would always second guess myself. I don’t like following the rules of society. Being labeled a good person or a good Christian does not matter to me. I considered myself a good Christian, but I never went to church before this year. I knew how I worshipped and never saw the need of having to be seen at Sunday service by other people. So when it came to volunteering, I was never the first to jump up and say “Hey, look at what I did”. So anyways, when we were going through the lesson about helping others that can not give back, I really thought long and hard about what I could do.
Just have to note that I did not feel forced to do this. I did not read the book and automatically think that for me to be a good Christian I had to help someone who could not pay me back. I just realized that society and human behavior has created us to perform tasks and to use energy in the most efficient way as possible. Biologically speaking, we will not expend energy on a source, for example food, unless we believe we will receive the energy back from that source. So I was attempting to find a “non-selfish” act.
How could I reach out to other people and not receive anything back? I do make the extra effort to help those in my everyday life, like lending an ear to a troubled friend, even when that stack of homework is piled up on my desk. But all of those actions can be paid back. Volunteering at the kitchen seemed like a viable option (it helps that in the book it talked specifically about feeding the hungry and the needy). I was still reluctant because of my feelings about volunteering and societies views. However, I decided I was not going to let that get in my way. I wanted to go help. Just like when I first decided to go to church. I learned that you get out of something everything that you put in. If you go to church but do not care, or do not live what is being taught, then society will still view you as a “good” Christian but in your heart you would know that you are not. So as for volunteering, if it is just done for show then society will think you are a good person, but in your heart you will know the truth.
I guess now I should talk about the actual experience. I headed to the kitchen in Austin early in the morning. When I got there I had no idea what to expect. I have seen soup kitchens on TV but I have never seen one in real life (I know TV exaggerates some things a wee bit). The experience overall was humbling, hence the title of the blog. I helped on preparation of the food and clean up. The people that I saw at the kitchen have lost every material possession that they had once owned but yet many of them were in good spirits. They did not seem to be consumed in self pity (I get caught up in self pity, at times when things don’t work out as planned) but instead they were just really appreciative of the food in their stomachs. I wished I could have talked to a few of them about life in general to see their views but I was busy cleaning up. The experience helped me understand what in life I should focus on. From the people at the kitchen I learned I should always keep my spirits high. Family, friends, a community that cares about you and your faith are the most important things in life. From the process of deciding to go to the kitchen I have learned how I measure success. I always work hard because that was what I was taught. I knew that hard work lead to success. I didn’t know what being successful was though. All I knew was that you should work hard to get a job. A job leads to money. When you have money you are happy thus considered successful, that is what society says. Well I learned that you should be happy with what you are given. You work hard because you want to. You help your friends because you want to. You volunteer because you want to. You worship your God because you want to. You live life because you want to. Now isn’t doing what you want the true measure of happiness? And when you are happy, you are a success. That’s what society says, right?
Just have to note that I did not feel forced to do this. I did not read the book and automatically think that for me to be a good Christian I had to help someone who could not pay me back. I just realized that society and human behavior has created us to perform tasks and to use energy in the most efficient way as possible. Biologically speaking, we will not expend energy on a source, for example food, unless we believe we will receive the energy back from that source. So I was attempting to find a “non-selfish” act.
How could I reach out to other people and not receive anything back? I do make the extra effort to help those in my everyday life, like lending an ear to a troubled friend, even when that stack of homework is piled up on my desk. But all of those actions can be paid back. Volunteering at the kitchen seemed like a viable option (it helps that in the book it talked specifically about feeding the hungry and the needy). I was still reluctant because of my feelings about volunteering and societies views. However, I decided I was not going to let that get in my way. I wanted to go help. Just like when I first decided to go to church. I learned that you get out of something everything that you put in. If you go to church but do not care, or do not live what is being taught, then society will still view you as a “good” Christian but in your heart you would know that you are not. So as for volunteering, if it is just done for show then society will think you are a good person, but in your heart you will know the truth.
I guess now I should talk about the actual experience. I headed to the kitchen in Austin early in the morning. When I got there I had no idea what to expect. I have seen soup kitchens on TV but I have never seen one in real life (I know TV exaggerates some things a wee bit). The experience overall was humbling, hence the title of the blog. I helped on preparation of the food and clean up. The people that I saw at the kitchen have lost every material possession that they had once owned but yet many of them were in good spirits. They did not seem to be consumed in self pity (I get caught up in self pity, at times when things don’t work out as planned) but instead they were just really appreciative of the food in their stomachs. I wished I could have talked to a few of them about life in general to see their views but I was busy cleaning up. The experience helped me understand what in life I should focus on. From the people at the kitchen I learned I should always keep my spirits high. Family, friends, a community that cares about you and your faith are the most important things in life. From the process of deciding to go to the kitchen I have learned how I measure success. I always work hard because that was what I was taught. I knew that hard work lead to success. I didn’t know what being successful was though. All I knew was that you should work hard to get a job. A job leads to money. When you have money you are happy thus considered successful, that is what society says. Well I learned that you should be happy with what you are given. You work hard because you want to. You help your friends because you want to. You volunteer because you want to. You worship your God because you want to. You live life because you want to. Now isn’t doing what you want the true measure of happiness? And when you are happy, you are a success. That’s what society says, right?
Monday, August 31, 2009
First One '09
For this semester, I like the idea of sharing articles from our respected fields of interest. I learn a lot about other topics that I would not normally be drawn to by listening to someone and contributing to a conversation about that subject. I also think that the articles or readings do not necessarily have to be restricted to someone’s major. We can all learn a lot by an interest in any aspect of human life, such as the economy or healthcare. Incorporating Newsweek articles would also help in that aspect. Maybe the first half hour or so of every class can be dedicated to talking about anything we found interesting.
Currently I am not working on a civic engagement project. Over the summer I attempted to return to my volunteering position at the Houston Humane Society, however, the time commitment was not compatible with my other summer activities. Up until this point I had not planned to continue volunteering because I have been preoccupied with my classes. I would love to start working with the boys and girls club again because I learned so much about the kids just through observation. I could connect a lot of what I was seeing to the material I was reading about in class. I still like the idea of doing civic engagement as a group. The group dynamics and working together, allows us to learn more from what we are doing. If I was to continue a civic engagement project, I would like to volunteer at the Georgetown Animal Shelter. Working at the Animal Shelter would be suited best for my major and my interests. It would probably relate more to the purpose of paideia if I move more out of my field of “expertise” while working on my civic engagement.
For my creative/ research works project, I will probably present my Animal Behavior capstone. I plan to start taking my 2 semester (possibly 3 semester) capstone next semester. I want to work either with Dr. Guarraci in the rat laboratory or Dr. Purdy with cuddlefish. I worked with the rats during my research methods class and thoroughly enjoyed the experience. I liked learning about effects of drugs on the brain and the neurological aspects of the lab. However, I have not decided if studying the sexual behaviors of female rats is for me. I will decide soon which route I am going to take.
So far I have made no progress for my intercultural experience. I was 100% set on a program I decided on for last summer but then I learned about a new program that provides more of what I am looking for. No matter what, I will be working on a study abroad for next summer in Australia. Which program I choose is yet to be decided. I will be meeting with Ms. Mennicke once my schedule has settled down a bit, to go over details.
Currently I am not working on a civic engagement project. Over the summer I attempted to return to my volunteering position at the Houston Humane Society, however, the time commitment was not compatible with my other summer activities. Up until this point I had not planned to continue volunteering because I have been preoccupied with my classes. I would love to start working with the boys and girls club again because I learned so much about the kids just through observation. I could connect a lot of what I was seeing to the material I was reading about in class. I still like the idea of doing civic engagement as a group. The group dynamics and working together, allows us to learn more from what we are doing. If I was to continue a civic engagement project, I would like to volunteer at the Georgetown Animal Shelter. Working at the Animal Shelter would be suited best for my major and my interests. It would probably relate more to the purpose of paideia if I move more out of my field of “expertise” while working on my civic engagement.
For my creative/ research works project, I will probably present my Animal Behavior capstone. I plan to start taking my 2 semester (possibly 3 semester) capstone next semester. I want to work either with Dr. Guarraci in the rat laboratory or Dr. Purdy with cuddlefish. I worked with the rats during my research methods class and thoroughly enjoyed the experience. I liked learning about effects of drugs on the brain and the neurological aspects of the lab. However, I have not decided if studying the sexual behaviors of female rats is for me. I will decide soon which route I am going to take.
So far I have made no progress for my intercultural experience. I was 100% set on a program I decided on for last summer but then I learned about a new program that provides more of what I am looking for. No matter what, I will be working on a study abroad for next summer in Australia. Which program I choose is yet to be decided. I will be meeting with Ms. Mennicke once my schedule has settled down a bit, to go over details.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
SWS
At the student works symposium I attended the paper presentations dealing with political sciences. I sat in on the lectures given by Paige Ammons: The Ethics of Earmarks, Stephanie Seaman: Governor Perry’s Decision to Mandate Gardasil Vaccination for Texas School Girls: Good Policy? Good Politics? or an Ethical Dilemma?, Drew Diamond: The Second Gulf War and Personal Framing of a Security Threat, Taylor Spalla: What Is the Ethical Decision to be Made with the Remaining Detainees at Guantanamo?. I have to be honest, I was completely confused half the time about what the presentations were about. Political science is not my specialty but I did enjoy learning about what issues the government has to dealing with. I do remember the debate about mandating the Gardisal Vaccination when it came out a couple of years ago. The presentation covered both of the approaches of why it should or should not be mandated. I enjoyed the lectures but think I could learn more by going to a science based lecture. I did stretch myself quite a bit by attending political science lectures. I think that the presenters did a nice job communicating their research and the visual aids were very impressive. They all seemed so calm and collected talking in front of an audience. I am already nervous about giving a presentation in a few years.
The poster presentations I saw were very impressive and informative. My favorite was The Rubens Tube by Will Hardy, Sean Smith and Pelham Keahey. Basically, the Rubens tube makes musical sound waves visible with fire. I was disappointed that the tube was not functionally properly because of the wind but Will showed me a video he had of the tube working. It was amazing to say the least. The tube is lit on fire and a song is played through the middle of the tube. As the sound waves pass through the tube, the fire jumps according to the frequency of the notes. Just like how a stereo system has bars to represent sound waves, the Rubens Tube displays the waves with fire (awesome). I also went to Matthew Dorris’ poster: Heavy Metal Toxins in Dillo Dirt. I thought his study was very interesting because it extracted different metals from the dillo dirt. Dillo dirt is a type of fertilizer that has been known to kill plants and live stock. Matthew worked to determine what the toxins are in dillo dirt.
I was impressed with all the hard work the students at SU have done. I can’t wait (but still nervous) about my future presentation.
The poster presentations I saw were very impressive and informative. My favorite was The Rubens Tube by Will Hardy, Sean Smith and Pelham Keahey. Basically, the Rubens tube makes musical sound waves visible with fire. I was disappointed that the tube was not functionally properly because of the wind but Will showed me a video he had of the tube working. It was amazing to say the least. The tube is lit on fire and a song is played through the middle of the tube. As the sound waves pass through the tube, the fire jumps according to the frequency of the notes. Just like how a stereo system has bars to represent sound waves, the Rubens Tube displays the waves with fire (awesome). I also went to Matthew Dorris’ poster: Heavy Metal Toxins in Dillo Dirt. I thought his study was very interesting because it extracted different metals from the dillo dirt. Dillo dirt is a type of fertilizer that has been known to kill plants and live stock. Matthew worked to determine what the toxins are in dillo dirt.
I was impressed with all the hard work the students at SU have done. I can’t wait (but still nervous) about my future presentation.
Final Session
The boys and girls club was fun and exciting. The kids loved us and loved to see what new activities we had in store for them. I think our sessions went well overall. We carefully planned out each activity but of course nothing went as planned. I felt like some of the kids started understanding what it meant to work as a team but others still had trouble with the concept. On the first day one kid ended up on the sidelines watching everyone play while he was pouting because he did no want to pass the ball in a game of basketball. I felt like that kid (I don’t want to name names, but I think people know who I am talking about) got better at working with others especially during the paper airplane building competition when he taught his teammate a trick to fly the paper airplane farther. I do feel that some children, such as him, will have to learn how to work in a team environment the hard way but I think the idea is floating around in the back of his mind.
Some of the kids were a lot younger then I expected. Some of the activities we planned for required more attention and understanding then they were willing or able to give. By the end we adjusted our activities properly to provide a good time for all the children. When we saw an activity heading south we would quickly change the focus to a different game. I think that went well because they all have such a short attention span to begin with. I did see why Daniel is so desperately looking for a conflict resolution session. Some of the kids argue about everything. One kid (still not naming names) would spend about 10 minutes arguing why he was not out in four square every time he played. The other kids would get frustrated with him and not know how to express their emotions towards him. He would sit and argue until Josh or Gerald came to take him aside. One boy I was standing next to during the other boys tantrum whispered to me “he always does this, but I’m not going to say anything. He is just a big baby.” I thought it was cute because he was trying so hard not to get in the middle of the argument.
As I stated earlier, I am not sure if the kids understood the theme of our sessions. They liked having our attention and playing games with us. I liked how their faces lit up when we would walk into the club. I don’t know if I made a difference in a child’s life. I don’t even know if the kids will ever remember me (come on, we taught them how to make boats out of aluminum foil, how could you forget us). But I
Some of the kids were a lot younger then I expected. Some of the activities we planned for required more attention and understanding then they were willing or able to give. By the end we adjusted our activities properly to provide a good time for all the children. When we saw an activity heading south we would quickly change the focus to a different game. I think that went well because they all have such a short attention span to begin with. I did see why Daniel is so desperately looking for a conflict resolution session. Some of the kids argue about everything. One kid (still not naming names) would spend about 10 minutes arguing why he was not out in four square every time he played. The other kids would get frustrated with him and not know how to express their emotions towards him. He would sit and argue until Josh or Gerald came to take him aside. One boy I was standing next to during the other boys tantrum whispered to me “he always does this, but I’m not going to say anything. He is just a big baby.” I thought it was cute because he was trying so hard not to get in the middle of the argument.
As I stated earlier, I am not sure if the kids understood the theme of our sessions. They liked having our attention and playing games with us. I liked how their faces lit up when we would walk into the club. I don’t know if I made a difference in a child’s life. I don’t even know if the kids will ever remember me (come on, we taught them how to make boats out of aluminum foil, how could you forget us). But I
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
First session
Today we went to the boys and girls club for our first session of team building activities. Overall I think our session was quite successful. I was worried before we arrived because we were told the entire club was going to be required to participate in our activities. However, the kids were given an option to participate. We first started with the name game which failed because the kids did not really understand the game. After a couple of rounds we learned names enough so we decided to move on to the next activity. For our next activity we played mafia. I think our game would have been better if we had older kids playing. I was not expecting to have kids around the age of 7. They did not really understand the point of the game. It was fun for the first few rounds but they lost interest quite easily. After the mafia game, we played chain tag. I believe the chain tag game was by far the most successful. We stressed the importance of working together in order to get other people. There was a problem with one of the kids. He would get frustrated with having to be locked in a chain and wanted to break free to chase after his friends. I think by the end the kids saw how important it was to work together for a common goal. We would decide who we wanted to tag and communicated with each other to chase after them. During the chain tag game, we also got a lot more kids to join us. We started with a majority of girls in our group. Toward the end of the tag game we attracted a whole lot more boys to our group. When we were done with the tag game we had an extra 15 minutes to spare so we decided to play basketball or four square. It was successful because the kids who did not want to play basketball were satisfied with four square.
I thought the dynamics of the boys and girls club were very surprising. I thought the racial groups were very diverse and the way the children acted were even more diverse. As a natural people watcher I learned a lot about the children by watching the way they acted. I tried to decide why they acted the way they did, for example some obviously did not get enough attention at home. Some of the pieces came together when we saw how the parents acted toward their children when they were being picked up.
I really enjoyed our first session and think that the kids really enjoyed having us around. The staff seemed satisfied with our activities, especially chain tag. I was afraid after today’s lunch meeting that the staff was going to be too strict preventing the kids from fooling around and having a good time. Actually the staff was great help. They stayed out of the way and let us regulate the activities. I did appreciate having Gerald around during the chain tag because he helped us make sure the kids were participating correctly and he knew how to handle the disobedient kids. I can’t wait for our next session.
As a side note: I just wanted to add this to the blog but I don’t think anyone will really read this. As I was playing with the kids I happened to see the conflict resolution group get out. When exiting one kid placed frosting from his cupcake onto another kids shirt. That kid turned to him and said “I swear I’ll hit you.” I found this interesting because they just exited from a session that should have taught them that violence is not the way to solve a problem. I am not saying that the conflict resolution did not work because I think it would be basically impossible to change someone’s raw emotions in just a few sessions. I just didn’t know if you guys wanted to address that as a scenario at your next session. I just thought that I would throw out something I saw from my observations.
I thought the dynamics of the boys and girls club were very surprising. I thought the racial groups were very diverse and the way the children acted were even more diverse. As a natural people watcher I learned a lot about the children by watching the way they acted. I tried to decide why they acted the way they did, for example some obviously did not get enough attention at home. Some of the pieces came together when we saw how the parents acted toward their children when they were being picked up.
I really enjoyed our first session and think that the kids really enjoyed having us around. The staff seemed satisfied with our activities, especially chain tag. I was afraid after today’s lunch meeting that the staff was going to be too strict preventing the kids from fooling around and having a good time. Actually the staff was great help. They stayed out of the way and let us regulate the activities. I did appreciate having Gerald around during the chain tag because he helped us make sure the kids were participating correctly and he knew how to handle the disobedient kids. I can’t wait for our next session.
As a side note: I just wanted to add this to the blog but I don’t think anyone will really read this. As I was playing with the kids I happened to see the conflict resolution group get out. When exiting one kid placed frosting from his cupcake onto another kids shirt. That kid turned to him and said “I swear I’ll hit you.” I found this interesting because they just exited from a session that should have taught them that violence is not the way to solve a problem. I am not saying that the conflict resolution did not work because I think it would be basically impossible to change someone’s raw emotions in just a few sessions. I just didn’t know if you guys wanted to address that as a scenario at your next session. I just thought that I would throw out something I saw from my observations.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
JDA Lecture
I finally got to see the Jesse Danial Ames Lecture: Transgenderism and Citizenship: A Dialogue between Eli Clare and Matt Richardson.” During the lecture, much was argued about how citizenship is falsely defined. Eli Clare suggested that citizens believe that the government of there land should protect its citizens when in fact they do not, well not all of them. It seemed to be suggested that the government is biased to which people they protect, bringing race, disabilities, and sexual orientation into the mix. I disagree with much of the argument made. I feel like the government has made great leaps in the not to distant past to help all of citizens regardless of race, gender orientation and disabilities. I still believe that much improvement needs to be made but you can not change the minds of individuals by changing a government. Examples of hate crimes were spilled out left and right. While I do find hate crimes horrific I do not think it is right to assume a majority of people feel or act the way of the hater.
I did enjoy the lecture in the sense that I did not understand much about transgenderism. Reading the articles before last class period helped me understand the lecture a little more then I think I would have if I did not read them. Much of the information presented was new to me so I do enjoy that I learned something new. The speakers definitely did present a different view on things that I never would have thought about, such as the questions presented on paperwork. From my point of view I felt like some thoughts were a stretch maybe an over exaggeration to a poorly worded sentence. For example, the question are you a citizen or are you an undocumented alien, seemed like an over exaggeration. From my view point an alien is defined as belonging to another country or government. Eli interpreted alien as some sub human form. While there are two (maybe more, I am not sure) interpretations of an alien in today’s society, one being a foreign creature from space, I believe that the term alien first originate as a person who does not belong to the current government. I am not sure if this is what Eli mean but that is how I interpreted it. Overal the lecture did make me think. I thought about my own points of views and how I interpreted things. It made me think how different each individual is and how selfish it would be to ask someone to conform there ideas to suit your own ideas. I thought about how I wish every individual can see that everyone is different and not judge how they live their lives.
I did enjoy the lecture in the sense that I did not understand much about transgenderism. Reading the articles before last class period helped me understand the lecture a little more then I think I would have if I did not read them. Much of the information presented was new to me so I do enjoy that I learned something new. The speakers definitely did present a different view on things that I never would have thought about, such as the questions presented on paperwork. From my point of view I felt like some thoughts were a stretch maybe an over exaggeration to a poorly worded sentence. For example, the question are you a citizen or are you an undocumented alien, seemed like an over exaggeration. From my view point an alien is defined as belonging to another country or government. Eli interpreted alien as some sub human form. While there are two (maybe more, I am not sure) interpretations of an alien in today’s society, one being a foreign creature from space, I believe that the term alien first originate as a person who does not belong to the current government. I am not sure if this is what Eli mean but that is how I interpreted it. Overal the lecture did make me think. I thought about my own points of views and how I interpreted things. It made me think how different each individual is and how selfish it would be to ask someone to conform there ideas to suit your own ideas. I thought about how I wish every individual can see that everyone is different and not judge how they live their lives.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
DRAGONS!!! Dr. Woo lecture
Recently, I attended a lecture given by Dr. Kevin Woo of the psychology department. The lecture was entitled Sensitivity to Salient Movement: The Motion Characteristics on Signal Design in the Jacky Dragon. The Jacky Dragon is an Australian agamid lizard. Their habitats include sclerophyll forest, rocky ridges and costal heathland. Jacky dragons perform stereotypical visual displays in the form of social signals. There are three normal social signals that are displayed the tail-flick is an alert signal, a push-up body rock is an aggressive signal, and the slow arm wave is a submissive signal. They also have a receiver sensory system. In this receiver sensory system, specific sensory receivers are engaged by specific signals. They exploit preexisting biases and are used to understand sensory and perceptual phena. There are four components to the receiver sensory system. The first two conspicuous and stimulate receiver organs are classified as sensory. Predictable and memorable are cognitive compounds.
Researchers need four things to understand motion perception. They need to be able to quantify motion perception. They need to be able to test sensitivity to movement. They need to understand basic sensory processes. Finally, they need to be able to identify correlations between visual sensitivity and movement.
The study that was conducted to test motion perception first trained the Jacky dragons instrumentally. Dot kinematograms, which do not resemble biologically meaningful stimuli, were used. The dots on the computer screen moved randomly until the experiment was started. For the experiment, the dots would move in one direction at a specific coherence, the percentage of dots moving in that direction, at a specific speed, either 5, 20, or 80 degrees per second. 128 conditions were tested. After the computer displayed the dots, the dragons would move to the side in which the dots were moving. When the dragons moved to the correct side, they received a reward of a cyber invertebrate. The results found that the dragons are sensitive to high speed movement and have difficulty in perceiving slow-moving targets. Next they placed the dot kinematograms on the backdrop of a natural setting. The natural settings included still, calm, and windy settings. In this study, the results indicated that increase of wind mask speeds that are low and the dragon’s capacity to discriminate the stimuli.
In another experiment with the Jacky dragons, a computer animated dragon was created on the computer. The programs created identical movements to the social signals displayed in the dragons. This experiment stimulated competition of isolated motor patterns across natural wind conditions. The results found the tail flick was the highest on the hierarchy of conspicuousness, followed by the push-up body rock and finally the slow arm wave. The slow arm wave is a submissive behavior so it is predictable that it would be on the lower end of the hierarchy. The results indicate that Jacky dragons are highly sensitive to fast motion. They have different sensitivity to aggressive and submissive signals. They are stable across natural wind conditions. They match displays to changing wind conditions. They can discriminate between morphological cues.
I greatly enjoyed the lecture. I liked the process in which Dr. Woo went about to learn how the dragons perceived objects and motion. I think it is hard as humans to think that other animals see the world differently then we do. It is difficult to put yourself in another’s’ eyes to see how they see things. I wonder what other research has been done with other animals that is similar to this.
Researchers need four things to understand motion perception. They need to be able to quantify motion perception. They need to be able to test sensitivity to movement. They need to understand basic sensory processes. Finally, they need to be able to identify correlations between visual sensitivity and movement.
The study that was conducted to test motion perception first trained the Jacky dragons instrumentally. Dot kinematograms, which do not resemble biologically meaningful stimuli, were used. The dots on the computer screen moved randomly until the experiment was started. For the experiment, the dots would move in one direction at a specific coherence, the percentage of dots moving in that direction, at a specific speed, either 5, 20, or 80 degrees per second. 128 conditions were tested. After the computer displayed the dots, the dragons would move to the side in which the dots were moving. When the dragons moved to the correct side, they received a reward of a cyber invertebrate. The results found that the dragons are sensitive to high speed movement and have difficulty in perceiving slow-moving targets. Next they placed the dot kinematograms on the backdrop of a natural setting. The natural settings included still, calm, and windy settings. In this study, the results indicated that increase of wind mask speeds that are low and the dragon’s capacity to discriminate the stimuli.
In another experiment with the Jacky dragons, a computer animated dragon was created on the computer. The programs created identical movements to the social signals displayed in the dragons. This experiment stimulated competition of isolated motor patterns across natural wind conditions. The results found the tail flick was the highest on the hierarchy of conspicuousness, followed by the push-up body rock and finally the slow arm wave. The slow arm wave is a submissive behavior so it is predictable that it would be on the lower end of the hierarchy. The results indicate that Jacky dragons are highly sensitive to fast motion. They have different sensitivity to aggressive and submissive signals. They are stable across natural wind conditions. They match displays to changing wind conditions. They can discriminate between morphological cues.
I greatly enjoyed the lecture. I liked the process in which Dr. Woo went about to learn how the dragons perceived objects and motion. I think it is hard as humans to think that other animals see the world differently then we do. It is difficult to put yourself in another’s’ eyes to see how they see things. I wonder what other research has been done with other animals that is similar to this.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Brown Symposium, Science and Religion
The topic of this year’s Brown Symposium intrigued me greatly as both a scientist and a Christian. Science and Religion has been discussed for as long as I can remember. In grade school evolution was touched on and then revoked and then again mentioned but then scold. I was confused as a mere 5th grader as to why such a controversy would exist. So as any good scientist would do, I researched. I could see a slight conflict when comparing my little understanding of both subject fields but I didn’t understand why it was a big deal, I always thought people should be allowed to believe in what or whoever they wanted. As I grew up and experienced life more, I created my own perceptions of God and used scientific evidence to back up my ideas. Still there are gaps in my understanding of the two fields but nothing is perfect including science and religion. I was very excited about the series of lectures that were given so I attended a good majority of them. My two favorite were Andrew Newberg’s “How God Changes Your Brain” and Christopher Bader and Paul Froese “Images of God and Views on Science: Findings from the Baylor Religion Survey”.
I enjoyed particularly Bader and Froese’s presentation because they engaged the audience to such a great extent. Bader and Froese created a survey for there study which categories people’s perception of God into four different categories. The study found that perception of God is related to the person’s view of science. The most interesting fact that was presented was that “non believers are more likely to see conflict in science and religion”. I think this makes total sense but total non sense at the same time. I see that a person can become a non believer because of the conflict, some people stop believing if they can’t understand. But at the same time, just because they don’t understand does not give them permission to criticize what someone else believes. Overall, Bader and Froese’s presentation was a clearly straight forward sociology study; however, I don’t think some of the audience members understood you can’t draw causation from a relationship.
Andrew Newberg’s “How God Changes Your Brain” was also very straight forward. His study examined the fMRI images of the brain of those who believed in God, in this case a nun, and an atheist. He found greater activity levels in the frontal lobe of the nun when she was told to think of God but no difference was found in the atheist when the perception of God was though of. I found this interesting because I recently have read a few articles about how meditation changes the brain. I wonder if praying would be considered a type of meditation and how that would affect the brain. I think I need to do more research on Andrew Newberg. I did not understand everything he was talking about but it was very interesting.
I feel like most of the presentations I went to did not present much controversial information. There were a few details that bothered me like when Simon Conway Morris said he believed conciseness does not entirely lay inside the brain, I just don’t see that. The other was David Williams’ belief that religion is a 100% social construct, as a scientist he should know better (nothing is 100%). I can’t wait to discuss the lectures further with my peers.
I enjoyed particularly Bader and Froese’s presentation because they engaged the audience to such a great extent. Bader and Froese created a survey for there study which categories people’s perception of God into four different categories. The study found that perception of God is related to the person’s view of science. The most interesting fact that was presented was that “non believers are more likely to see conflict in science and religion”. I think this makes total sense but total non sense at the same time. I see that a person can become a non believer because of the conflict, some people stop believing if they can’t understand. But at the same time, just because they don’t understand does not give them permission to criticize what someone else believes. Overall, Bader and Froese’s presentation was a clearly straight forward sociology study; however, I don’t think some of the audience members understood you can’t draw causation from a relationship.
Andrew Newberg’s “How God Changes Your Brain” was also very straight forward. His study examined the fMRI images of the brain of those who believed in God, in this case a nun, and an atheist. He found greater activity levels in the frontal lobe of the nun when she was told to think of God but no difference was found in the atheist when the perception of God was though of. I found this interesting because I recently have read a few articles about how meditation changes the brain. I wonder if praying would be considered a type of meditation and how that would affect the brain. I think I need to do more research on Andrew Newberg. I did not understand everything he was talking about but it was very interesting.
I feel like most of the presentations I went to did not present much controversial information. There were a few details that bothered me like when Simon Conway Morris said he believed conciseness does not entirely lay inside the brain, I just don’t see that. The other was David Williams’ belief that religion is a 100% social construct, as a scientist he should know better (nothing is 100%). I can’t wait to discuss the lectures further with my peers.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Tuesdays with Morrie
The book Tuesdays with Morrie brought up many of the conflicts people face during a life time. Finding serenity in helplessness was a struggle that Morrie had to conquer every day of his last weeks of life. The way he coped with his pending death was spreading wisdom he had gained over his lifetime. Mitch gained the most from these lessons about money, society, and family by learning not that he has become one of those people that are stuck in a meaningless life but by learning that love is the most important aspect of life. Morrie did not want pity for his disease he just wanted love, which Mitch slowly begins to understand through the progression of the book. He begins to take over Morrie’s physical therapy because he notices that Morrie just wants human contact. At the end of the book, Mitch incorporates this into his own life, when he contacts his brother and expresses love rather then pity. Sometimes people who are going through a hard time, whether a terminal disease or just a bad day, get frustrated and angry with people who feel sorry for them. Love and a listening ear are all they want.
Tuesdays with Morrie ties into our Paideia group we understand human behavior through Morrie’s gain of wisdom. He would rather spread the word of what he understands from his life then to coward away because of a disease that is slowly killing him. He could have easily lived his last days hidden away feeling sorry for himself. Morrie gained knowledge about life through death. He wanted to share it to the young so that they could live while they were still alive. One of my favorite quotes was “So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half asleep, even when they are busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning." I have been trying through my own life to create purpose and meaning. Being in college it is hard to determine what is important. I feel like I get caught up in grades and stressful classes. It’s hard to appreciate the little things in life when looking at the big picture, the future. I feel like Paideia is helping me find importance in my life. Devoting ourselves to our community, one of the ways to create a meaningful life.
Tuesdays with Morrie ties into our Paideia group we understand human behavior through Morrie’s gain of wisdom. He would rather spread the word of what he understands from his life then to coward away because of a disease that is slowly killing him. He could have easily lived his last days hidden away feeling sorry for himself. Morrie gained knowledge about life through death. He wanted to share it to the young so that they could live while they were still alive. One of my favorite quotes was “So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half asleep, even when they are busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning." I have been trying through my own life to create purpose and meaning. Being in college it is hard to determine what is important. I feel like I get caught up in grades and stressful classes. It’s hard to appreciate the little things in life when looking at the big picture, the future. I feel like Paideia is helping me find importance in my life. Devoting ourselves to our community, one of the ways to create a meaningful life.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Boys and Girls Club
Working with the girls and boys club is hopefully going to be a very exciting experience. I am really glad our cohort finally agreed on organization that we can work together to help. I am looking forward to getting to know the members of our cohort even better in a non-classroom setting, what better way to get to know a person’s true character then working together to help others. As for the specifics of the project, I think it would be best to have structured activities. This way there is some control in the group and the kids would be easier to handle. Having structured activities, even if its only for the first couple of visits would allow for us to get to know the kids better which in the long run could lead to more flexibility and unstructured activities. As for me I would enjoy going to the boys and girls club in a group, even if it’s just one or two other people. Just because I am a shy person it is easier for me personally to adjust with other people. I do not think every one has to go in a group but I like to at least have the option. It might also make it easier for the cohort to relate in the issues and experiences that occur during our visits. If more people experienced the same issue then it would be easier to talk about with the rest of the cohort, leading to better discussions and a better understanding of human behavior. What also would lead to better discussions is if we all make at least a once every two week commitment to the club. It would be ideal for everyone to go once a week for a couple hours but realistically speaking every other week would work just as well. Working with a group of kids I believe would be ideal. From what I gathered the last time we talked about this was that not every kid goes every day. If that is the case then it would be very disappointing if a member of the cohort shows up and the kid does not. With a group of kids, there is a better chance to have something to do when we go. Also in a group it is easier to learn social behavior between the kids.
One concern I have is not knowing what to expect from this experience. I am not sure what exactly I am going to gain from working with kids but I am very anxious to find out. I am a little worried about the time commitment but I am sure we will work it all out.
One concern I have is not knowing what to expect from this experience. I am not sure what exactly I am going to gain from working with kids but I am very anxious to find out. I am a little worried about the time commitment but I am sure we will work it all out.
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